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Barely Holding On (#1)

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Time 7m

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Book #1 of the "Barely" Series

I'm invisible. Im reckless, and I don't care about myself, or anybody around me. I do what is needed to survive. I thrive off of the adrenaline from my actions, without caring if they will get me killed or not. I'm Gray, I'm 19, in a gang, independent, and I need nobody. 

My childhood wasn't easy, but i'm not a "cliche CEO". I'm self made. I wasn't born into a rich family. I had to work my ass off to get where I am today, and the result? I'm a control freak, and mentally and physically exhausted. I'm Blake Easton, I'm 23, a CEO, miserable, and I need a normal life.

!!! THIS BOOK IS RATED MATURE !!!All Rights Reserved

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Tue, Feb 19, 2019

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