Unfiltered Trains Thought
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Ongoing23m
Last published Sat, Feb 23, 2019
I thought I might copy some of my journal entries onto Wattpad. These are all my candid, and unfiltered thoughts. I'm 18 now, but I've been journaling on and off since I could read and write. Like anyone, I've endured some hardships- family issues, depression, anxiety. Many of my entries center around my experience with Anorexia and Bulimia. The bulk of the earlier experiences I discuss were written during the time I spent inside a residential facility (in other words, a mental hospital) for my eating disorder. I will give a quick heads up to those who might find that triggering when those topics do crop up. So, if you're still here, then I hope you get something out of reading my darkest, as well as some very contemplative trains of thought with some goofy crap writing in between.
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