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Ongoing, First published Feb 21, 2019
Mature
Evelyn Crespo is a normal outcasted teenager in high school. Too many body piercings, tattoos everywhere, and a drug addiction. At home, she is abused by her father everyday, broken and beaten, trying her best to give her younger brother and sister a better life. 

Jaymes Steele, best friends with Alec, is the classic bad boy in high school that girls freak out about. When he notices Evelyn at one of his parties, emotions and feelings reappear from long ago. He wants to be with her all the time, and know everything there is to know about her.

But when Evelyn realizes Jay for who he is, to what lengths would she go to hide her secret life from him? How can she stay with him and not reveal her traumatizing, everyday, horror? How would he react if he found out?

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"You do realize that I am not interested in hanging out with you, right?" I reiterated, crossing my arms across my body and leaned up against my front door. I've come up with so many ways to get him to leave me alone, but none of them succeeded.  He is determined, I'll give him that.

Jay steps closer to me, looking me head on, smiling. He puts a hand on my shoulder, receiving a glare from me. He chuckles, but doesn't let go of my shoulder.

"If that were true, which we both know isn't, then you would have already went in your house and not engaged in this conversation." He gives me a smirk, thinking he had me figured out. 

I quickly move his hand off of my shoulder. "I only stayed outside to make sure you leave me alone. I'm tired of this bullshit mind games. I've gone most of my life by myself and I am not going to change it for some boy who starts to notice me." I scoff under my breathe, pushing my hair out of my face.

"Now, please get off my property and leave me alone. You're not wanted." With that, I slam my front door on his face and make my way up to my room.
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✔COMPLETED ✔ Description: So, what do you do at 14 when you've been kicked out of the only home you've ever known? What do you do when you call your family and friends for help and they all say no? Ella's last hope is a biker named Beast, who happens to be the reason she was thrown out of her house in the first place. Beast is the oldest son of the Wolf family and he's the black sheep. He was thrown out at 15 and has been apart of the Devil's Angels since he was 16. He's 17 now. The two of them have been friends since Ella was 11 and Beast was 14. They have always had a hatred filled relationship. So when she calls and says shes in the old church building with two bags and that she has no other choice but to ask for his help, what does he do? He goes to help her of course. What will happen to them? What hardships will the two go through? Come and see for yourself. Welcome to the world of the Devil's Angels MC. Hope you enjoy your stay. Excerpt : "What's ya name sweetheart?" One of the oldest looking men in group asks, looking me up and down undressing me with his eyes. "Its Ella and I'm not your sweetheart." I say glaring at him. "Oh feisty ain't cha?" He questions like a prick stepping closer again. "Take one more step and I'll kick you where the sun doesn't shine." I threaten, holding my ground. He throws his head back laughing and then says, "As if, you're a tiny little thing." While taking another step, close enough for me to get him. He throws his head back laughing again, which gives me an opportunity to kick him, so I do. I use all the strength and force in my leg and I get him right in his junk. His knees instantly buckle and he grabs his crotch as he falls. All his buddies, including Beast start laughing loudly at the old man. I bend over to his face and slyly say, "I gave you a fair warning sweetheart." I finish by blowing him a kiss. "