update + "what happened to absence of the heart?'

this is why i haven't been active, what's going on with the story, and what's going to happen with this account.
to those who were actually really excited for the story, (though there's probably only one of you) im very sorry. it'll be explained why what's happening with this story is happening, and why in the book. i too am disappointed about this, but there's no emotionally safe way i can continue to work on the canon writing of this story.
im sorry those (or the person) i'll be disappointing with this update