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Philophobia [Jamilton]
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Alexander Hamilton was always alone, he never had any friends, all of his real family was dead, he lived with the Schuyler Sisters and thier father. Too him? Love was weakness the feeling of butterflies in his stomach that made him sick.
The main thing that cause this fear was the 'Hamilton Pamphlet', John Laurans and him dated for 4 years, Alexander refused to have sex with him so Laruans drugged him, raped him, and broke him. To everyone in the office? Hamilton was just a dirty slut. He didn't hate love, he was just scared of experiencing it again, in fear of repeating the cycle.
Everything changes when he meets his new boss, named Thomas Jefferson.
Philophobia: A fear of expreincing the feeling of love.
!Trigger Warnings!
*Rape
*Kidnapping
*Panic attacks
*Self Harm
*Slurs
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