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Philophobia [Jamilton]

FlowerLafayette

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Reads 34,596
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Parts 18
Time 1h 2m

FlowerLafayette

Mature

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Alexander Hamilton was always alone, he never had any friends, all of his real family was dead, he lived with the Schuyler Sisters and thier father. Too him? Love was weakness the feeling of butterflies in his stomach that made him sick. 

The main thing that cause this fear was the 'Hamilton Pamphlet', John Laurans and him dated for 4 years, Alexander refused to have sex with him so Laruans drugged him, raped him, and broke him. To everyone in the office? Hamilton was just a dirty slut. He didn't hate love, he was just scared of experiencing it again, in fear of repeating the cycle.

Everything changes when he meets his new boss, named Thomas Jefferson.

Philophobia: A fear of expreincing the feeling of love.

!Trigger Warnings!

*Rape
*Kidnapping
*Panic attacks
*Self Harm
*SlursAll Rights Reserved

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Last Time | lams by HarmoniaGL

TW : depression, suicidal thoughts Alexander had, according to him, no more reason to live. He was tired, and his head kept telling him that he had no one, that if he disappeared, no one would care. And that was true. Alexander was alone, terribly alone. He was waiting for someone. More than anyone on this Earth, he needed a person by his side, because that was the only thing that would have allowed him to stay alive. Alexander couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't find any meaning in his life, and to continue fighting had become useless. And he had no one. Yeah, he just needed someone. And it was there, just as everything was falling apart around him, that he met him. John. The boy he was waiting for. The person he needed. --------------------------------------------------------- Okay, this story is not amazing, but I hope you'll enjoy it!

Impenetrable Heart | Lams College AU by SavingPeter

There are two things you need to know about John Laurens. One: don't ask him about his major, and two: don't try to get to know him. Despite these warnings, Alexander Hamilton is determined to get inside of the mind of the boy from the college party with the curly hair and freckles who looked like he would rather have been anywhere else than there. John, meanwhile, has one thing on his mind; to not fall for that little persistent kid from the Caribbean who feels uniquely entitled to his messed-up life. But nothing could ever be that simple, now could it? **Mature Rating for heavy topics. Cover logo credits to @KinziFace! Thank you so much for making it!**

Found (a jamilton fanfiction) [COMPLETED] by what_did_i_miss_guys

**WARNING** There is alot of angst and mentions of self-harm and suicide. Read at your own risk When Alexander looses eliza due to complications in her lungs, He and their two children, Phillip and Angelica, are forced to move out of their house by Eliza's father. They walked into an open alleyway with a few trash cans and Alexander built a small shelter for them to live in. But what happens when Thomas Jefferson, one of Alexander's old college roommates and his daughter, Rae, find them, cold and disheveled? Highest Rank: #8 Hamiltrash (April 2, 2020) #5 Jamilton (April 13, 2020) [Completed: March 28, 2020]

Wasn't Meant To Be : Jamilton [Completed] by ABornAndRaisedWriter

Alexander and Thomas Hamilton and Jefferson Two entirely different people. Enemies... possible lovers? Alexander silently waited by Thomas's locker, arms crossed. It isn't his fault that he and Thomas were paired together for a debate assignment. Mr. Washington probably just wanted to see Alexander suffer. AND, doing this assignment means that it gives Thomas more time to tease him. Alexander's crush on Thomas was probably the most childish thing in the world, but Thomas just teases him about it, and it is the worst thing ever! The older boy even groped him earlier that day! Alexander clicked back into reality as Thomas started to walk towards his locker.

Who Tells Our Story? by hcmiltcn_schuyler

Alexander Hamilton and Eliza Schuyler are the exact opposite of each other. Though they have their differences, their love prevails. Alexander Hamilton has been on his own for as long as he could remember. Even since he was a child, some of his earliest memories are those of being alone on the island he was born on, Nevis. His father left when he was a young child, and his mother fell ill and died when he was only the tender age of 12. Those experiences shaped Alexander into the man he is now; a hard working, loyal, strong, independent, dedicated, intelligent, man. His writing is what got him off the island, but it's his gang, The Sons Of Liberty (SOL) with his pals John, Laf, Hercules, and Washington that keep him going. Until he met Eliza.. Eliza Schuyler was born into wealth, and into a safe, loving, caring home. She's always surrounded by her family. Eliza is most commonly found alongside her sisters, Angelica, and Peggy. Though it seems as if Eliza has everything one could want, there is one thing she wants and doesn't have; love. She wants nothing more than to fall in love. Eliza is a hard working, caring, shy, talented, passionate, young lady with a heart of gold. It isn't until she falls for a certain bad boy that things start to change.. A modern day Hamliza fan fiction. Can Eliza separate the good from the bad? Can she change Alexander? Will Alexander change her? Are they too opposite to even work? *This story may contain sensitive or heavy subjects, and I will try to do my best to add trigger warnings*

Hamilton X Reader Oneshots / Imagines / Scenarios by hamilcasting

So sometimes I have really good fanfic ideas at 3 am. But it's too much work to publish a new story every sinGLE TIME! SSosoosososoooo I decided to make an ENTIRE BOOK 700+ prompts to request Might start this book back up again. (Today is 12/24/19) #1 in Hamiltonmusical #592 IN FANFICTION ??? #449 in imagines :)

Save Me·Jamilton by MicahArctic

Alexander Hamilton was just a normal 18 year old but when he meets Thomas Jefferson everything changes. He had it all, a good boyfriend, a good adoptive family, a good group of friends. The two couldn't be more different and yet, they are so similar. Thomas Jefferson was a 20 year old who was the brother to Lafayette. He thought of Alexander as Annoying but it went from loathing to something more. Alex was a college Freshman while Thomas was a college Junior. They became enemies ever since the first encounter but Thomas can't deny how he really feels. Encounter after encounter, they learn more than they would like until everything comes lose. And getting stuck as Roommates doesn't make it any better.

fake smiles~ (a lams story) by EddieIsFuckingBaby

John is in his second year of college and he has a dorm with his best friend alexander hamilton! John has had feelings for alexander since they meet in the 6th grade. John knows all abot alexander, his past, sexuality and other stuff. It wasn't untill Alexander started dating Thomass Jeffershit (damn roasted) john fell into a a sad angry jealousy. John looks at Alex with Thomass and thinks 'you could be more happy with me' but John knew he could not ruin his best friends relationship, so he waited. One day he looked at alex and his smile looked so forced. Fake smiles. (oof side story next to one shots rip) maybe smut ;3 lots of gay ness self harm abuse maybe rape (idfk) If any of the things above make you uneasy then dont read or look at warning before the story on the top of the page.

DO NOT THROW AWAY YOUR SHOT||lams oneshots by fangirl_who_writes

*this is currently being edited* I am horrible at descriptions so I'm just going to put an insert from it for now: Alexander Hamilton had never experienced snow. Never. Growing up in the Caribbean he'd never had the chance. Never until he'd moves to New York. Sure, he dreamed about seeing snow. But he never imagined that it was so cold. Yeah, it was pretty and all, but it was way too cold. The first year was the worst, but each year made Alexander dislike snow more and more. John was happy, though. Growing up in New York, John was used to the snow. Alexander on the other hand, he wasn't used to snow at all, as he grew up in the Caribbean. "Hey, Lex," John said, walking into his and Alexander's apartment. Alex looked up from his huddle of blankets on their couch. "No," he muttered. "What was that?" John asked, cheerfully. "No," Alex muttered again. "What?" "No. I'm not going outside." Alexander glared at John. "At least not until Spring."

The Kiss//////Jamilton soulmate ///Modern AU/// by Jamilton-Lams

Another soul mate au as if there wasn't enough lol Alexander Hamilton's life is sh** but something about one person gets him. Gets him to forget the bad. But the kiss tells all, and this kiss was wrong. They stayed friends. Then someone came back. Someone with horrible memories. Will they grow close or forever be apart? Well, the Kiss tells all.

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fake smiles~ (a lams story) cover

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Last Time | lams

TW : depression, suicidal thoughts Alexander had, according to him, no more reason to live. He was tired, and his head kept telling him that he had no one, that if he disappeared, no one would care. And that was true. Alexander was alone, terribly alone. He was waiting for someone. More than anyone on this Earth, he needed a person by his side, because that was the only thing that would have allowed him to stay alive. Alexander couldn't take it anymore. He couldn't find any meaning in his life, and to continue fighting had become useless. And he had no one. Yeah, he just needed someone. And it was there, just as everything was falling apart around him, that he met him. John. The boy he was waiting for. The person he needed. --------------------------------------------------------- Okay, this story is not amazing, but I hope you'll enjoy it!