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Philophobia [Jamilton]

FlowerLafayette

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Reads 37,073
Votes 1,018
Parts 18
Time 1h 2m

FlowerLafayette

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Alexander Hamilton was always alone, he never had any friends, all of his real family was dead, he lived with the Schuyler Sisters and thier father. Too him? Love was weakness the feeling of butterflies in his stomach that made him sick. 

The main thing that cause this fear was the 'Hamilton Pamphlet', John Laurans and him dated for 4 years, Alexander refused to have sex with him so Laruans drugged him, raped him, and broke him. To everyone in the office? Hamilton was just a dirty slut. He didn't hate love, he was just scared of experiencing it again, in fear of repeating the cycle.

Everything changes when he meets his new boss, named Thomas Jefferson.

Philophobia: A fear of expreincing the feeling of love.

!Trigger Warnings!

*Rape
*Kidnapping
*Panic attacks
*Self Harm
*SlursAll Rights Reserved

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Only Know You Love Him When You Let Him Go by coffeeflavoredtearz

Alexander was happily dating John. Everything was fine. Then it wasn't. John dumps him without telling him anything. But it gets better for him. He falls for his roommate. Sure, cheesy romance film esque, but he was happy. it took so long to find it after the breakup. After breaking up with Alexander, John was fine. He was free from a clingy and sometimes idiotic boyfriend. But when he begins to see Alexander going out and falling in love with Thomas Jefferson of all people, it breaks his heart. He realizes too late, that he let the love of his life slip through his fingers. He grows depressed, he lost his only friends and his love. He was truly alone. TRIGGER WARNINGS implied/ referenced Rape/non con Self harm smut homophobic/transphobic slurs major character death

If You're In Love (Hamliza) by TheDefectivePearl

WARNING, LANGUAGE, SMUT, ANGST(Probably) Alexander Hamilton wants nothing to do with love, especially after all the heartbreak he's been through. After meeting a new girl however, the new Student at Kings College May change his mind. Elizabeth is in the same boat. She's been cheated on. Again. Heartbroken, she promises herself that she'll never date again as long as she lives. Then she meets the new transfer student, Alexander. Maybe soulmates do exist after all. Then Eliza gets a new best friend. Maria Lewis. Maria's 'boyfriend' had been abusing her, physically. Eliza told her to leave him. Escape. Find someone new.. Well.. that didn't turn out as Eliza would've expected

Hamilton X Reader Oneshots / Imagines / Scenarios by hamilcasting

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The Kiss//////Jamilton soulmate ///Modern AU/// by Jamilton-Lams

Another soul mate au as if there wasn't enough lol Alexander Hamilton's life is sh** but something about one person gets him. Gets him to forget the bad. But the kiss tells all, and this kiss was wrong. They stayed friends. Then someone came back. Someone with horrible memories. Will they grow close or forever be apart? Well, the Kiss tells all.

The Past { Slight Jamilton} ~Completed~ by checkers65

Before his dad left, Alex and his brother used to be a part of their dad's secret spy agency. He loved that life. Thanks to his dad's wealth, he and his brother had non-human hearing, sight, and strength. They were superhuman. But his dad left when he was 10, and he's in his last year of college now. He missed the thrill. But what if people from his past want him to give up what he has now for the life he loved? yes, this is jamilton (kinda) i think i'll change the title...i dont rlly like it college au soulmate au (when you touch, you see colors) spy au (i got the inspiration for a spy au from @jamsandhams or Ava on instagram but its not totally the same.)

Found (a jamilton fanfiction) [COMPLETED] by what_did_i_miss_guys

**WARNING** There is alot of angst and mentions of self-harm and suicide. Read at your own risk When Alexander looses eliza due to complications in her lungs, He and their two children, Phillip and Angelica, are forced to move out of their house by Eliza's father. They walked into an open alleyway with a few trash cans and Alexander built a small shelter for them to live in. But what happens when Thomas Jefferson, one of Alexander's old college roommates and his daughter, Rae, find them, cold and disheveled? Highest Rank: #8 Hamiltrash (April 2, 2020) #5 Jamilton (April 13, 2020) [Completed: March 28, 2020]

I'm Okay by gay_angsty_crap

Alexander Hamilton isn't okay. He can pretend he is. But he's really not. \/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\ Appearance: musical Time period: modern day TW: abuse, strong language, rape, smut (with individual trigger warnings before every chapter)

My Dear Laurens (Lams) by youmayhaveheardofme3

Alexander knows he loves Laurens. He also knows that he is straight and only has a platonic relationship with Laurens. He does not think about the taste of Laurens' lips, the soft curls of his hair framing his honey-drop freckles, the curve and snap of the muscles under his skin, or the region under his breeches he wouldn't dare say even under the cover of his thoughts. He loves John Laurens, but not like that, ya know? I mean, come on, there's no way he's gay in a time where that could get you killed, where he's a public political figure, where he's a proud American soldier, where he could die any second (thanks to the time period and his mouth), or where he's married to Elizabeth Schuyler. So, shut up, okay. It's not gonna happen. Ever. In conclusion, go to hell. . . . Follows the musical like a timeline. Basically, how I imagine Lams would have been able to occur during the OG time period.

Healing (Whamjamilton) by yoops_

Alexander Hamilton has had his mind on his boss for quite some time now. He thinks about him at nights that sleep is forgotten, and he sketches his eyes any chance he gets. Thomas Jefferson has had his eyes on Aexander for a long time. From his passion filled expression to the skip of his walk when he won an arguement, Jefferson found himself loving Alex. George Washington is the boss of the company. With cold business dealing eyes and an expression of stone. But, he's recently been finding himself thinking of other things. Things that... aren't exactly work related. (Charles Lee is a dick) WARNINGS: Rape scenes, murder scenes, sex scenes, cuss words, depression, abuse

Thanks For The Memories (Jamilton) by trashboyapple

THIS STORY HAS BEEN DISCONTINUED Alexander and Thomas have always hated eachother. They always fight about the most stupid things! People like that stay enemy's. Right? Thomas Jefferson,19,6'2,loves mac and cheese and the color magenta. He's a tall sassy gay. Alexander Hamilton,18,5'7,loves getting his way and green. He's a short angry bisexual. Who could possibly tell that the two acually loved eachother? But people like that have secrets too. Ships: Jamilton Mulette Marliza Pegdosia One of the AU's is when you realize someone is your soul mate your heart\chest glows ***College A.u***

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