17 year old Connor Murphy and his closest-and only friend, Evan Hansen are trapped in a hidden friendship. Connor, trying to protect his reputation as the loner stoner kid of the school, refuses to be seen with happy-go-lucky, anxious but friendly Evan in public. Evan hates this, but Connor has even more of a reason for this. He's developed Hanahaki, a fatal unless treated disease that is caused by one-sided love. He can get a risky surgery that may erase all of his emotions, convince Evan to love him back, or just die. The problem: Evan likes his sister, Zoe. What will Connor do? Will he die for his love without confessing, or tell the truth and get the surgery?
"If we survive this, I'll give you a life worth living, even if I can't give myself that."
Evan Hansen? Anxiety disorder. Never really thinks about how often he has panic attacks but it's just about daily. Connor Murphy? Severe depression and anger issues. Self harms too. Throws things without thinking, aims for people who never did anything. Some call him a murder in the waiting.
They're watching eachother kill them self one baby step at a time from their self destructive tendencies, just waiting for it to stop; for them to get help, but that day might never arrive
*heavy self harm, abuse, strong language and overall unhealthy relationship indication and description, if you're easily upset this is really not for you.*