17 year old Connor Murphy and his closest-and only friend, Evan Hansen are trapped in a hidden friendship. Connor, trying to protect his reputation as the loner stoner kid of the school, refuses to be seen with happy-go-lucky, anxious but friendly Evan in public. Evan hates this, but Connor has even more of a reason for this. He's developed Hanahaki, a fatal unless treated disease that is caused by one-sided love. He can get a risky surgery that may erase all of his emotions, convince Evan to love him back, or just die. The problem: Evan likes his sister, Zoe. What will Connor do? Will he die for his love without confessing, or tell the truth and get the surgery?
CW; suicide attempt, homophobia, homophobic slurs, depression, anxiety, etc.
This is basically just a super cheesy and mushy fanfic involving Connor and Evan from DEH. There might also be some Jared x Alana in here as well, but I haven't quite made up my mind yet. This is an AU where Connor never died when he tried to take his own life, so there won't be any death-angst. There will eventually be a suicide attempt by Connor for reasons I haven't figured out yet.