"I'm Fine" and Other Bullshit
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Last published Mon, Feb 25, 2019
During the darkest time in my life I struggled alone, trapped inside my head, not knowing how to get out. But, I eventually found that I was not the only one wearing a mask...
This is a completely true story starting 2 years ago on Valentine's Day when I was admitted to a mental hospital for, what I thought, was just my depression. But, during these 2 years, I learned more about myself than most would in a lifetime.
This isn't just a story about mental illness, however. I wouldn't be writing my own book if I didn't think my life was interesting enough. This is also a story about love and the hardships that come with loving someone else before yourself.
This book includes real diary entries from this period in my life as well as some original poetry that helped me to express myself in a way I never could.
TRIGGER WARNING: This book includes detailed stories of mental illness, self-harm, sexual assault, and anorexia. But, it ultimately is about overcoming all of these things. My goal is not to trigger anyone but to connect with anyone out there who's struggling like I was.
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