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As I Watch Him Die

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Juniper Mandell loves to be the center of attention. Freshly graduated out of high school, her new life as a student in Trinity University may just be the best thing for her raging ego. Everyone loves her, and she can't help but love being loved. With her social status thriving, and her eyes locked on Jaxon Crawford, the boy she's had a crush on since her early years of high school, life couldn't be better.

Of course, that is until Aiden Bracker begins outshining Juniper in her own personal popularity contest. Who does he think he is stealing all her friends, and being the most adored person in Trinity University? This is unacceptable, and Juniper is ready to fight back for the attention Aiden stole from her.

Except, Aiden isn't the perfect, darling of a boy he tries so desperately to fool the world. Aiden has a dark secret, one he would rather die than let out. Aiden is a twenty-three-year-old college student, and he has an eating disorder.

He is convinced he doesn't have a problem. He might hate himself, irrationally avoid consuming anything that isn't bitter black coffee or diet pills whenever he can, and voluntarily throws up when he's eaten a bit more than he'd like. But he doesn't have a problem. He's absolutely fine. He's Aiden Bracker, he's a future CEO in the making. He doesn't have time for mental diseases. 
There's nothing wrong with him at all.

Nothing wrong, until his body gives out from the pressure.


THIS BOOK IS A FICTIONAL STORY ABOUT A MAN WITH AN EATING DISORDER.  I DO NOT CONDONE THIS BEHAVIOR, NOR DO I RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE SENSITIVE TO THIS SUBJECT MATTER.Tous Droits Réservés

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Dysmorphia, écrit par lunarlevana_

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Thrown Into Trouble, écrit par lp25428

Alex just moved from Florida to New York with his mom, he is starting at a new school in November. But he has a secret he is an age regressor and he is also a type 1 diabetic and has celiac's disease (it's a really bad allergy to wheat flour). He doesn't like telling people about his illnesses since his mom and father got divorced after he was diagnosed and his father lost the custody battle and Alex hasn't seen or heard from his father since then. What happens when Alex meets the popular yet mysterious and slightly bad boys Blake and Dylan. Will they find out he's a little? Will they accept him or make fun of him? What if they are caregivers looking for a little? Will Alex find out the secret dangerous job that Blake and Dylan have? Read to find out. Age regression is a coping mechanism and isn't sexual at all. Please do not put this book in ddlg or age play list because that's not what this is. I am putting my book back up Wattpad had taken it down so if this seems familiar to you it probably is the original just got taken down. I don't remember exactly what I put in the description the first time I put it up so it might be a bit different this time but I assure you it is the same book and nothing has changed in it other than the fact that the characters birthdays are now on the character page.

The Sun, the Moon and the Sky., écrit par hope_373

Reverse Harem Aiden and Aly, childhood friends, being in a love-hate relation works for them. They live their lives as much as they can despite the constant pull of problems. Like the sun and the moon, they are together yet far apart. What happens when they find their sky? The one they can call their home that gives them a place to be together, that binds them all together. What happens when they find their sky in a person who is completely far away from the world they live in, unaware of the things that go around, completely oblivious to the harsh settings of the true world and how it works? Blue, a self righteous nerd, with a lot of energy and a kind heart, lives with his parents and is happy with his life at present and there is nothing he could ask for more in his life. What can he do when instead of one, he comes across two bundles of inconvenience, who happen to be wholly entrancing for him that he just can't seem to get them off his mind? Let's see how the sky secures the sun and the moon together and gives them their home. "You're our miracle, our heart beating, like the sun and moon meeting, it won't happen, it can't happen, But it does. You make everything possible". 'Its always gonna be us against the world, not us against each other.' Smut Threesome Slight Bdsm Romance Love Fluff Sexual content Angst Violence Torture Strong Language Ranked: #1 in polyamory #1 in angstwithhappyending #1 in bdsm #1 in boyxboy This is a fictional book.

The Twisted Mind, écrit par marvelousmayam

"I felt as if I didn't belong, And I felt as if i'm not sick enough" Alfie struggles with the concept of food. He loves it, he hates it and just wants to find peace with it and within himself. He wants to make up with his body, his mind but he's lost all control so he's finding it hard to live. Alfie Hailo, a 16 year old swimmer, has been struggling with food since the age of 13. His parents put him in dance class when he was 6 but he was getting bullied as he got older, so decided to quit and choose a more 'masculine' sport.His father also left the family home 2 years prior and has been struggling to understand why. He has amazing friends, and an amazing family who love and care for him dearly but, he doesn't feel this. He feels like he has to be perfect. With the pressure of school, and having to keep up to the social norms of a professional swimmer, it's hard for Alfie to concentrate. He needs the help. And to do this, Alvin helps. Alvin helps him find his worth, take control, and makes his life easier, or so he seems. His best friends, Killian and Ruby, know Alfie inside and out. They know his family life, school life. And this is because Alfie is a simple person. He has never had a detention, nor has he been expelled. He's a straight A student with no history of alcohol or drug abuse. Will they suspect anything? How will Alfie proceed with his excruciating pain. Will he cover it up or will he find the courage to speak up and seek help?

$Suicidal Attraction {Old Version}, écrit par _DarkQueen$

"When people who have trust issues fall in love it's scary. The people they fall for fill up that hole in their life that was left by someone who caused them to have trust issues. The person starts to fill whole and happy; like this person is the one. But when that one person leaves,the one who made them invincible,they're crushed. The persons life gets worse and they fall deeper and deeper into that hole. The hole of what used to be." Kira Green is one that never wanted to fall in love. She planned on being alone and pushed everyone who loved her away. She gets bullied relentlessly even though she tries her hardest not to be seen. But in our society,the more one tries to hide, the more one is exposed. When Logan Williams came bursting into her life like he did, she didn't know what to think of this charming boy. He was different than the rest of the world. For the first time, a person wanted to know about the scars on Kira's heart than the ones on her wrists. She doesn't trust him at all. She wants absolutely nothing to do with Logan,but somehow he finds a way to meddle his way into her life. And when he figures out more about Kira,he's more than shocked. He doesn't see a girl who hates the entire world ,but hates herself even more. He doesn't see a fat, ugly, whore when gazing into her eyes. He sees a girl who's been wronged by the world left and right. He sees a girl who cares music more than she cares about her own life. He sees a person who needs love. But not everyone who you try to save ends up being saved in the end. Sometimes it's just too late. As Kira always says ,"Happily ever after was so once upon a time." This book does not promote self harm or suicide. And it also doesn't romanticize it. It simply is a story about two broken people on a quest to fix one another and mange to somehow fall in love with each other along the way. FYI THIS IS NOT A FAN FICTION! THIS IS AN ORIGINAL STORY CREATED BY ME!!!

Emily's Escape, écrit par FunctionalSalt

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Dysmorphia

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