Easing the pain (BTS ff)

"STOP! WHERE'S TAE?" you ask after the mission.
that day...that day you'd never forget...why'd he leave?
was it you?
was it them?
or did you leave him?
A 14 year old assassin (you) and 7 team mates...well now 6
you'd worked with them since you were 6, you were by far the best and the backup leader (After Namjoon)
when one of the members get taken away, your best friend, what will you do?