My Journal. (Jalbert)
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Complete Sun, May 9, 202122m
"Well, what makes you sad?"
I fucking hate that question. Depression isn't about being fucking sad. I can't control what I fucking feel anymore.
One minute I'm happy and shit and the next I wanna rip the veins from my arms out from under my skin.
I just want to be happy.
A/N: Madly depressing. Mentions of Suicide and self harm. Strong language.
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