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"For a girl who had her entire life ahead of her, I certainly thought about dying a lot. It wasn't something foreign to me; though I'd never been able to explain or even fully grasp why I had these thoughts, I'd had them since I was little, maybe five or six years old. I was fifteen now, sitting at my desk in my biology class, absently staring out the window as I contemplated what it would be like to tumble out of it and fall to the asphalt of the parking lot two long stories below."

-Ase Hansen, Chapter 1

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GENERAL WARNINGS: 
-This is an extremely emotional story. You will laugh. You will cry. Read at your own risk.
-Yes, I know this story sucks. Yes, I know I rushed the ending. Yes, I know it's incredibly fast-paced; I wrote it on a deadline after procrastinating for far too long. Again, read at your own risk.

TRIGGER WARNINGS:
-Mental illness
-SuicideAll Rights Reserved

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