The complicated girl

I think that sometimes when you need someone or something so bad you never get it, well maybe not ‘sometimes’ maybe the whole time but.. What if what we need isn’t going to be good for us? What if God has something better for us? But at the same time, what if what we need is the right thing for us but we are not right for it, and yeah that feeling when you are trying your hardest and damn still not good enough at all, when you watch the person you love with someone else and you just have to paint a smile on your face and feel happy for that person because you can’t do anything about it now, when you finally move on and be with someone else but you keep thinking about who made you feel loved for the first time, feeling guilty when you cheat on your boyfriend because of your stupid mind, when you see the people who you truly love getting hurt and you can’t do anything about it, when you feel like you’re helpless and useless, when you look at your hand and it’s full of scars and you can’t stop cutting, when nobody cares, when nobody notice you and you feel alone, these feelings that break you down, and you turn to be that person who gets hurt from any word and damn when you feel that the weigh of the world is on your shoulders. When you just want to kill yourself but you want to live happily at the same time, yeah well meet me, The complicated girl.