Trapped in my Own Thoughts
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Jake is a boy with lots of insecurities. He's attempting to survive through eighth grade without making much social interaction. But when he meets a new boy at school, everything changes. Jake needs to stay with his friend and try not to lose himself at the same time, but will he crack?
WARNING: self hate, suicide attempt, panic attacks
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