Through the Lies (On Hold)
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Last published Wed, Aug 19, 2020
(This book is on hold. I will also be editing the chapters quite a bit in the future.)
Hi there. My name is Gwen Fosters.
This is the story of me. The "me" I'm too scared to tell anyone about. The "me" people don't want to see. The "me" people NEED to see.
The only people who notice are the people who care. The people who love me. The people who have my back. Everyone else doesn't care. Everyone else doesn't notice because they don't want to get mixed up in my problems.
They all tell me I should be happy. Happy I have two loving parents. Happy I have friends. But I can't be happy. Not with my mind. It just isn't possible, at least not right now.
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Book 1 of Through the Life
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***TRIGGER WARNING FOR ANYONE WHO HAS STRUGGLED WITH EATING DISORDERS, SUICIDE, AND/OR SELF-HARM***
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