The Difficulty of Letting Go

This is real. This is honestly just a shitty way for me to get my feelings out. I needed an outlet and maybe some one can resonate with this. Essentially I just realized the man I thought I would end up with is not the one for me. In figuring out this discovery I am extremely sad since we have a huge amount of history. I do not know what to do, all I know is that I have all these thoughts and no one to listen to them. So why not publish them for the world to see? There is no upload schedule considering this is all about my feelings.