Drowsy Nights, Trying Times
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MatureOngoing19m
Last published Tue, May 21, 2019
Confessions of a lost 23 year old, trying to find her place in the world.
I'm so into my head and in my thoughts that I feel like I'm going to explode. I have no friends so I can't vent to anyone, so this is my outlet. Whatever deep thoughts I have, good or bad, it's going in here. I just need to let it all out. If you happen to stumble upon this, I'm sorry.
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