Save Me
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Dear Diary,
My name is Lux.
Two years ago I tried to commit suicide.
Two years ago my brother saved me.
Yesterday my brother died.
This is my story.
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Disclaimer:
This is entirely made up. This is not about me, nor is it about anyone I know.
This is very short, just an idea I had I wanted to try out. Don't judge me.
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