slowly suffering

She was waiting for me outside near where the grass never grows and there's a blood stain on the end of my shoes I try to wash it off with water but that doesn't work. I was ready to leave the house but I forgot one thing."Oh well I'll remember later saying to myself".who's the girl waiting for me outside? it's my girlfriend Julie was her name and she was pure beauty,her hair slightly pretty. My name is charlie.I always had thing for Julie ever sense we was kids. In the back off my mind I asked myself "do you think she will notice the blood stain on my shoes"? I hope not.
As we were sing "something by escape the fate" I saw a tear fall from her face and she hugged me tightly,we got closer but instead I pushed her away.I know that was a dick move but I have something in me that can't bring out. The next day Julie wasn't Julie (confused voice).He went to bed and slept. (Wake up panicking rapidly) his clothes wet , his hands are shaking "it's just a dream saying to himself" he heard Julie