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-Why am I still here?-Suicidal Izuku\katsudeku

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Reads 156,366
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Parts 21
Time 1h 19m

"Why won't you shut up! I know how to control my quirk, it's mine for goodness sakes! From what it looks like you should be studying yours! Just go! Go home! Go do whatever you want! Go die! I don't care! Just stop bothering me!

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If you don't do good with suicidal stuff, don't read. 

This is my first fanfic of 'my hero academia' please don't judge. 

NOT MY CHARACTERS! THEY DON'T BELONG TO Me! 

Fluff/no smut but if it goes there(which most likely will) I'll just say 'things got heated'. Sorry if you like the smut. but I promise you there will eventually be FLUUUUFFF! Yay! 


 But don't read it suicidal stuff bothers you. Or reading about self harm. Or blood. Please. 


No post date.

This book lasts a very VERY long time! Maybe can reach to 50 chapters? Maybe even, 70!?


Wednesday, April 24th, 2019,  katsudeku #1

Thursday, April 25th, 2019, bakudeku #9

Saturday, April 27th, 2019, suicidal #202

Sunday, April 28th, 2019, suicidal #65

Tuesday, April 30th, 2019, Suicidal #74

Wednesday, May 1st 2019, katsudeku #1

Sunday, May 19th, 2019, Suicidal #70

Wednesday, May 22, 2019, suicidal #61

Thursday, May 23 2019, suicidal #76All Rights Reserved

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