Miles away

It started with his demeanor.. the way he approached me. I wasn't interested but he was like a magnet and well I was bored. A kiss meant everything to me I craved his lips my whole body would heat up when he touched me. 1 week. 120 hours is all it took. I wanted him he made me think he wanted me too. I ignored the red flags because when he touched me my heart wanted to jump out to him I wanted him to hold and kiss me forever. I think I love him but it was too fast how could I love someone that fast? I never got that heated up. He took my heart I cried in front of him and hours later he left me. My body was ripped up all night trying to get a contact out of him. He barely talked to me he was so infatuated with his phone.. he talked of tomorrow and next month as if he was gonna let me stick around that long.. today I crave his touch again they way he looked at me. Blocked from his life from his texts from his touch from his lips from his hold on me.. why must I be like this? Always happens why can't I accept that no one will love me? I'm a vessel for sex I'm not his rose just a weed. I want to be someone's everything but I'm just their week fling. It repeats they get me attached they leave me I blame myself I restart. Moon why couldn't u love me like I wanted? Once u knew u had me u let me chase you but I was miles away.