Before I Destroy Myself
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They are right you know as cliche it may sound or seem time does heal , it doenst make you forget though and i think thats the reason people will say that its bs but it's the feeling you get when u remeber that changes , the pit in your stomach , the heaviness in ur eyelids , the pain in ur chest. That will go.Instread you'll feel nothing a combination of relief and curiosity you wander how something that seemed so innocent and pure became so rotten. Like a peach decaying but even that resorts to something useful , it gives nutrients to the soil helping the other plants and you must realise you may not of been able to save urself but you can save others. Learn to make the most of something so rotten and bring goodness tell them what they need to hear what you wished someone told you. So this is why I'm writing this book not to try and sugar coat things and tell you everything okay when it's not but to share my thoughts I guess a help guide. A journal.
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