Depression
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Last published Sun, Mar 31, 2019
"Why do you feel so sad?"
I look up at the ceiling, trying not to let the tears fall but I fail. Like I fail in life. I mean, why do I feel so sad? I have friends, family... I don't have any reason to feel sad, yet I feel sad all the time. Every second is worst than the last.
The first time I felt so sad, I just smiled and acted like nothing was wrong. Because nothing was wrong right? I just felt so sad. But it didn't go away, it only got worse.
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This book is all about depression. What is it? How do you feel? How can you help somebody with it. Every chapter will be different. Some of them will contain quotes and others will be a story about what happened to me. Or it will be about something you would like to hear about depression.
I made this book because I went through a rough time. Depression made it even harder. It made me feel numb and at the same time I felt so much pain. My eyes showed nothing while my heart was bleeding. It's something you can't understand unless you have been through it.
I want people to know that you're not alone, and if you are I will be there for you. Message me and I will be there.
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