Dear diary, this is my past which gave a birth to my present as a puzzle of good,bad,happy,pain....
Yes, the day I met him was unexplained.May be it was a heaven once.Now it is horrible more than hell."Sometimes it's not the butterflies that tell you YOU ARE IN LOVE;but the PAIN!! " The beautiful moments of us are now my bittersweet memories.Even my heart is broken but still I love him with all my pieces.But I don't want to fall in love with him or someone else.There are two types of pain in this world.The pain that hurts you and the pain that changes you.I'm changing.....not quickly but gradually...
I do lot of works harder and smarter to achieve my passion.I want to make my parents proud.I think I'm almost done with him,not almost totally...And I don't want to see him in my life again.And I decided to live my life in my own way without him.But the life sometimes gives what we don't want but gives what we need to hurt us,to leave us,to make us feel more alive,eternal......Yes I met him in my life again.Last time,he was a labor,kind,genuine,soft-heart,more love with family and most of all, love of my life.I can also said once he was everything in my life.But this time ,he is an upcoming engineer,cruel,rude and a person with no good and no love...and most of all this time he is so bewilder me than before and so handsome like always...I don't want him in my life again whatever my life needs and decides.Nothing is left in my heart for him but anger,pain and hatred...But it all goes to vein.
Yes,I can hide things away but I can't forget...I don't know why I can't...I'm trying to win him...no I'm trying to win myself.