Light and Darkness

Note: please don't read that if you don't want to suffer through episode 24 again.

This is a inner monologue of Ash while sitting in the public library after meeting with Blanca at the park but before Ash reads Eiji's letter.
There will be a second part of this after reading Eiji's letter (he won't die I promise).
It's like a prequel to my other story Another missed flight.
Sorry, I needed that to cope with chapter 24 and some people kept pestering me about publishing it so I had no choice ... I wrote that to understand Ash's reasoning.

Note that I had to pretend that Eiji told him some things directly and Ash just repeats what Eiji told him because Ash would never think or believe them about himself (like that he has a pure soul etc.)
Call that relative freedom.

Happy suffering ! Please don't hate me 😅