Should I say it ?

What if you loose one of your best friend ?
What if someone demands that you're the only reason for his death?
What if after he leaves this world you might die inside?
What if everyone around you start acting a little hazy ?
What if you find yourself dealing with the crowd of this world alone ?
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Can't imagine right?
A life without a buddy whose last night was with you .
Whose last talk was with you
Sometimes I feel that it's because of me that he's no more.