Breaking Your Own Heart

Sallow. . . Opposed to the deep end of the pool . . .tainted because the paint ran dry over the years . .dam near empty as if it's a glass of water but not just any kind of water ' a kind thats near brown because it's been dragged threw the dirt; you'd have to drain it almost everyday to get it back to it's clear form. . . It's form of health ' my health . . . ' so complicating it is, so frustrating ' so worthless at times. . . I mean you have this glass, this perfectly good glass ' your favorite glass to be exact, Yeah that glass and you fill it with water ' right up to the rim and you just know that this water is about to be the best water you ever experienced in your lifetime .it's like you've been walking miles in the desert all hot and burnt up & all you can think about, all you can dream about is that same glass of water, the water you poured. The water you knew would be there. . . But when you get back you see that that same water ' the water you cherished is now used,