Scarlett is a 17 year old, dark haired, 'emo fag'. Or, at least that's what she's been called her whole life, and she doesn't remember when she started to believe it.
She's never met her parents, she was put in an orphanage after she was abandoned outside a hospital. Her first time getting adopted, she was just 8, and at first, she was the happiest girl alive, but after she realised what 'parents' were really like, she came back a completely different person. The second, and last, time she was adopted she was 16 and more reluctant to go, but eventually, after a lot of persuasion, she left the orphanage, and this time it was so much worse.
Depressed, anxious, scared, alone, those are the feelings she gets daily, which have led her to destroy herself, mentally, and physically, and she doesn't know how much longer she can cope.
That is until 7 boys step into her life. Will the ghosts of her past haunt her forever? Or will these boys save her life? (The boys still live in the Sidemen house in this story, just because it make life easier for me)
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️
Mentions of:
Rape
Self harm
Suicidal thoughts
Suicide attempts
Abuse
Eating disorders
Book 1 of the "Used to Be" Series
Scarlett Fisher: the school's resident mean girl. Beautiful, smart (but doesn't let people know), charismatic, confident (or at least that's what everyone thinks.) The truth is, she's scared, Scared that one day people will see past her smile and charm, and see the person she really is on the inside. Scared that someone will remember who she used to be.
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Now I know I seem like a bitch, and your probably thinking I'm your stereotypical mean girl, but I wasn't always like this, back when high school first started. I had a best friend who I thought I would be friends with forever. I was shy and timid, and I was foolish enough to believe what people told me. Back then everyone knew me as Arora. After the incident I decided to stop going by my first name, I had also learned that being mean, and not taking anything form anyone was the only way to get people to treat you with respect.
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Arora Fisher: the girl most people didn't notice until they needed help with homework, the girl who was voted most likely to disappear and no one would notice. The girl who her believed in the good in others, who wanted to just give people a chance, no matter how many red flags. The girl who was lost to tragedy.
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"We'll be broken together." He try's to smile, but he can't manage it and I nod, knowing how much pain he feels.
"We'll be broken together." I whisper, after that we sit there, in an empty silence, neither of us wanting to be the first one to speak again, because it feels off, like the sound of our own voices might somehow break our hearts more.