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I'm Losing Myself

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Parts 17
Time 1h 26m

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Clarity Johnson, a badass girl who will stick up for anything she believes in. But be careful, don't piss her off.

She may come off as rude, or bitter at first. But on the inside, she's a broken girl who once cared too much.

After her abusive uncle was sent to prison, she begins her Junior year. Everything is the same. Same faces, same people, same reactions, same work.

But then, Jackson Alexander Delroy walk in, just to mess up her usual routine. She finds him like a breath of fresh air, with his intoxicating smell of sandalwood and strawberries. The two seem to have something in common. But what is it? 

Will they be able to find each other- and themselves, or lose themselves forever?

Read to find out. 💗

Trigger Warnings:
Abuse
Animal Abuse
Suicidal Thoughts
Suicidal Attempts (No Blood)
Death
Hospitalised Topics
Nightmares
Anxiety
Rape (MAJOR TRIGGER)
Kidnapping

Preferably read only if 14-15+, story contains mature themes and strong language.

For the cover I just chose a picture offline and edited it.

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