This is basically my mind and my feelings after bingeing today. I have struggled through an eating disorder. It's not binge eating disorder but after gaining weight from that disorder I have been binging. Writing this was sort of a self medicine for me. TRIGGER WARNING: if you are sensitive to eating disorders and things like that you do not have to read this. The last thing I want is for any one to feel bad. I love to write and writing this was a way to get me through the difficult time and if it helps anybody I any way that is a greater pleasure for me.