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All of My Trust, all of My Self [My abuse story]

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[Cover art is temporary but drawn by me] 
This book is going to be hard-hitting and it will contain a lot of triggering content. It's going to be hard to read and even harder for me to write but nobody ever knows when they're going to die; I could die tomorrow for all I know. Because of this I feel (as someone who's life has been ruined by sexual abuse): a strong sense of duty to get my story out there somewhere in hopes it will help people who have already experienced this type of abuse. To teach people to stay away from the self destructive choices I made, and hopefully shed some light on how you can help trauma victims and identify the signs that someone you know may be suffering. 
Trigger warnings for: Many types of abuse (mostly sexual), alcohol and drug abuse, self harm and suicide. 
PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE TRIGGER WARNINGS IF THIS TYPE OF CONTENT UPSETS YOU GREATLY! Keep yourself safe!All Rights Reserved

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Broken Pieces by SMC_547

"I love you" she says and kisses my jaw tenderly. "I love you too baby" I reply stroking her still damp hair. We were sat in a dirty McDonald's car park. We could be sat in a fucking pile of trash and I wouldn't care. Because I would be with her. As long as I'm with her, nothing else matters. -------------------------------------------------------- After all he had known was anger and hatred she was like a breath of fresh air to him. With just one look into her mesmerizing chocolate eyes and one listen to her angelic voice he knew he was ruined. He despised this feeling. He felt helpless. No matter how much he tried to stay away he was drawn to her and he knew he was playing a very dangerous game. Leaving the pain of her past behind her she starts a fresh in a new town with her older brother. Meeting the towns bad boy was not on her agenda but every time she saw him she was intrigued. He was rude and had a terrible attitude, but his eyes didn't show anything but pain which is something she knew all too well. They are complete opposites but have one thing in common. They are both broken, maybe just maybe they could be the cure to each others pain. ⚠️ this story contains mentions of abuse and alcohol so if you are not comfortable with this please do not read my story.

Monsters Inside My Head by the-silent-siren

WARNING: Some pieces may contain triggers for those who struggle with any form of depression or self harm. Please read with caution. I will often rearrange the chapters in the way I see fit, so please be patient and keep that in mind. This is my first attempt at poetry. It will consist of shit that I've gone through/dealt with and ramblings from my screwed up mind. These works are purely fictional and not meant to be taken literally.

Perfect Fate ✔ (Moved To Inkitt) by fanoshkaflippo

Wattpad Creator! Happy and proud. HIM: Staying the night? Not my thing. Hearts and flowers? Boring. Falling in love? Not anytime soon. Settling down? Off the table. Getting married? You're kidding me, right? That was me before the night we first met. Because, well, meeting a hot chick that made me hard just by looking at her was definitely not in my plans when I sneaked out of a woman's apartment after what was already a long night. Taking her home and getting her a chocolate cake, though, was kind of intentional. But falling for her? Boy, that was pretty much inevitable. HER: He came out of nowhere, literally. I was there, sitting on that bench, barefoot and crying and just getting my heart broken in peace and silence. Then he appeared, all mad and furious and sexy and tall and just drool-worthy! And just like that, despite my poor attempts of escaping him, he had me wrapped in his world. A crazy yet heart-fluttering world, that I have absolutely no intentions of leaving anytime soon. ------- Character development is a main theme in this book. It shows you how they both work on changing for the better, while trying to overcome the obstacles in their relationship and fight for each other till the end. ** Warning!! Some chapters contain sexual scenes, but there's always a warning at the head of the chapter. Do not read them if you're under 18.** * Also, please beware that this story contains a lot of swearing. Read at your own risk. * **I don't own any photos used in this book. All are found on the internet for public use.** Highest Rankings: Sexy - #1 Love - #1 General Fiction - #41 Romance - #46 ------ ** Copyright © 2014 by Fanoshka Flippo (Farah Fekry). All rights reserved. No part of this document may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without prior written permission of Fanoshka Flippo / Farah Fekry. **

I Have No Idea by Throwawayweirdo

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Ran Right Into Him by prettilyinLOVE

Melanie Davis is traumatized to put it shortly, her dad died, her moms an alcoholic and she was raped my her trashy boyfriend. She has no one. Until one day, she bumps into the one guys whos is can be frequently found in her thoughts for the past year. Melanie has learned to keep her head down and emotions in so the sudden appearance of a man who wears his heart on his sleeve and is trying to pull hers out is a bit, well... a bit much. And she's got some secrets that almost no one knows and the journey to trusting someone is a long one. But I guess we'll see how it goes. TW: Mentions of rape, alcohol, drugs, language, sex/sexual references, and high school partying. I'd put no one under 18 but I'm under 18 so that be a bit hypocritical of me. Hope u enjoy. 👍 But beware that I am still a minor and I'm still in school so I might not have time to update everyday, I'll try to at last once a week. Bit on the weekends I have no life so you can expect more from me then. Anyways if anyone actually reads this, it's my first story that came purely from me and only, others I've written (never posted) have been coped or largely inspired by a story someone else had written so be gentle with me, okay? (P.S. I have really bad spelling and grammar so I read over these thoroughly but if there are any mistakes please tell me so I can go back and fix them I really want you guys to enjoys this book). This is book is based off parts of ,y life and own personal experience, several romance and mental health books, and songs like One Day by Tate McRae and don't miss me by Claire Rosinkranz. Give them a listen. 👌

It Burns Within Us | Wildfire Series Book 1 by amelierhys

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Pain - A TommyInnit Angst by Elektrii

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UNDERGROUND by kima3126

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It's Okay to Use Your Big Girl Voice by Beautiful_Slugger

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Broken Pieces

"I love you" she says and kisses my jaw tenderly. "I love you too baby" I reply stroking her still damp hair. We were sat in a dirty McDonald's car park. We could be sat in a fucking pile of trash and I wouldn't care. Because I would be with her. As long as I'm with her, nothing else matters. -------------------------------------------------------- After all he had known was anger and hatred she was like a breath of fresh air to him. With just one look into her mesmerizing chocolate eyes and one listen to her angelic voice he knew he was ruined. He despised this feeling. He felt helpless. No matter how much he tried to stay away he was drawn to her and he knew he was playing a very dangerous game. Leaving the pain of her past behind her she starts a fresh in a new town with her older brother. Meeting the towns bad boy was not on her agenda but every time she saw him she was intrigued. He was rude and had a terrible attitude, but his eyes didn't show anything but pain which is something she knew all too well. They are complete opposites but have one thing in common. They are both broken, maybe just maybe they could be the cure to each others pain. ⚠️ this story contains mentions of abuse and alcohol so if you are not comfortable with this please do not read my story.