The Year of You (on hold)

I had you in my arms, locked in an embrace. We were close, so very close and we couldn't get closer.

And then suddenly I fell thousands of feet, my arm outstretched praying you'd grab my arm and pull me up and tell me you'll never let me go! But you never did.

And then I woke up covered in sweat, my heart beating faster than I thought possible.

When the moment passed and consciousness came to me I felt two things. Content yet restless.

At least it was a dream I consoled myself, but somewhere in me I knew it wasn't. This was a prophecy, it was our future; however much you might deny that there's an us. Why!? Why do you use your power suits as a disguise, and not to mention always walking away from me and telling me lies.

فَلَعَلَّكَ بَاخِعٌ نَفْسَكَ عَلَىٰ آثَارِهِمْ إِنْ لَمْ يُؤْمِنُوا بِهَٰذَا الْحَدِيثِ أَسَفًا
Then perhaps you would kill yourself through grief over them, [O Muhammad], if they do not believe in this message, [and] out of sorrow. 18:6

Thinking of you reminds me of the revelation sent down to our Beloved Prophet PBUH

إِنَّا جَعَلْنَا مَا عَلَى الْأَرْضِ زِينَةً لَهَا لِنَبْلُوَهُمْ أَيُّهُمْ أَحْسَنُ عَمَلًا
Indeed, We have made that which is on the earth adornment for it that We may test them [as to] which of them is best in deed. 18:7

You have failed yourself. You have failed your Lord. You have failed your test. I pray for your guidance.

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