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My Biggest Fear

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Why live in fear, hurt and regret when you can simply not feel anything forever? 

Get off me please! Don't do this to me!" I pleaded but he didn't stop. Tears suddenly streamed down my face as if I just got out of the shower. He spread my legs and came on top of me. He was kissing me in places that he wasn't supposed to. He nibbled on my neck hungrily and I groaned in pain. 

He kissed my lips so hard that it bled. I could smell the alcohol on him and I could feel his hot breath as he whispered everything that he was going to do to me.

I screamed for help so hard that I felt that I was going to pass out. I had no strength, I was so weak when I felt his fingers at my opening. I screamed again because of the pain I felt.

"Shut your mouth child or I will kill you after I'm done with you and don't you dare say a word to anyone." He threatened me as he held my throat with his rough hands and forced himself inside of me.

At that moment I felt my world crashing down. At 15 years old I lost my virginity not because I wanted to but because I was raped. I was lifeless on the bed, I couldn't move, I was still.

Maria Collins is very different. She hardly talks about her personal life and is  very scared of what will happen if she lets anyone in her life. She has been faced with challenges that only her and her brother, Akeem Collins, knows about since their parents died. She meets this boy that she never imagined that some day she would finally tell him her story. She's confused at the moment, therefore she doesn't want what she feels inside to hurt the guy that she  will open up to, Erick Carter.

@Wattpad My Biggest Fear By Akeisha Burke 2019 

NB: This story may contain activities that may be disturbing to readers such as a variety of different abuse!! Read at your own risk!All Rights Reserved

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