Is it possible to wake up one day and realize that you have a total crush on one of your brothers best friends? Like, you have known him for years and felt NOTHING. Then BAM, something changes. Is it possible to even love someone when you dont even love yourself? Note: This book includes self-harm. Self-harm is a real thing that so many people go through, and it does not need to be ignored. This is a fanfiction and is based when 5 seconds of summer were a lot younger.