"I always clean jewelry gifted to me, and newly bought." I smiled, using the toothbrush and scrubbing, the jewelry.
Excited at the little trinkets I gifted myself, that came in, and the ones gifted to me from a place out of love, from the gifter.
I let them soak in the cleaner, shaking it up a bit, and set the cooking timer, to 30 minutes. I looked at my adorable calender, splendidly decorated with such elegance and cute decor. I always receive compliments for it, I made it myself, with some bought items.
"While, that sets to clean, I take off a sticky note off the calender and get to work on that idea! Meanwhile, I've nearly came close to my goal, see it's easy to always make time for the things you love doing!" I smiled, as the camera perched behind the coffee table, on legs, recorded me, for my new YouTube Channel "Creative Minds."
"ALWAYS, remember to save the progress! I can't count how many times, sometimes, I thought it'd automatically save, and it'll not reload, when I came back to it! But, as God says! If it's meant to be, it'll be!" Giggling and smiling, looking around the amazing beautiful blessing I received, soft pu couch, elegance, beauty, harmony, and such serenity. Vibrating, so much joy and happiness, so why did i felt like something or someone is missing?
"Treasure what're you doing awake by this time". I heard my mum voice trailing behind.
I shivered,I knew perfectly the rules of not being awake by this time. I would only get scolded at and maybe my phone seized. But it's not really my fault for wanting a distraction from my messy life. I just couldn't take it anymore,I was tired of thinking of my life
I was tired of blaming God for the circumstances before me. Sometimes I feel like a burden and sometimes I wished I was never born. Life is cruel and learning from you mistakes doesn't count anymore.
I have been told about how things would be fine by my mates. Encouraging words to keep me going, but it's simply not working. I would have committed suicide but I don't want to put my mum through that pain. She is my most favorite person in the universe.
"Tress I'm talking to you. What are you doing awake?" I could feel my mum presence right behind me and dare not move. "Mum I just woke up and was just scrolling through Facebook sorry". I said after waking up from my trance.
"You know the rules,no phones at night. Don't make me believe you have a boyfriend. Goodnight and put off that phone. Mum loves you. Goodnight Tress".
"Goodnight Mum,sorry for breaking the rules. It won't happen again. I love you too". I smiled at her and watched her leave.
I was actually texting my boyfriend.. Thank goodness he didn't call tho. That was really close, didn't want my mum to worry about me....