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I have always been a person that was and still is afraid of letting others in. I have many personal reasons why but the main reason why is because they just end up using me like I'm nothing to begin with and I don't find out the truth on time; not even before I get attached to them. When it comes to men I just ignored them, never really mind them and never really paid much attention to them because I was in my own little world but all of that changed when one specific man try to get to me out of my own little world and out of my own comfort zone and the scary part was that we both didn't even know it. Let just say that he lied his way into my life somehow. He somehow convinced me to trust him enough to let him in. During a very short and fast period of time he somehow made me feel something for him but he felt nothing for me. He never made a clarification that he didn't care for me and not even just as friends; he didn't made it clear to me that I was nothing at all. So, you can say that he used me and lied to me and eventually things turn out not too good because it was never serious for him and in a way I completely understand his point of view of things but what about mines? Does he truly know mine? No he doesn't. I really want him to know my point of view so this is a letter that I hope he reads without being or getting angry and frustrated with me. I promise I'm not trying to make things way worse for him and what it already is and I'm not trying to do any harm.

Want To Know What The Letter Says?................

Then You Must Continue On Reading 📖


Thank you 🙏🏽 


Sorry for any grammatical mistakes and errors.


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My Point Of View & My Sincere Apology
Wed, May 8, 2019

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My Point Of View & My Sincere Apology
Wed, May 8, 2019

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