"Go after her, Harry! Don't sit there and wait for her to call, go after her! Because that's what you do if you love someone! Don't wait for her to give you a sign, because it might never come, don't let people happen to you, don't let what happened to Eleanor and me happen to you, or her, she's not a television show or tornado! There are people I might have loved, had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at 4 in the morning because they needed to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this! I always thought I'd be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a crap to do it back, or act like idiots, or be entirely honest or vulnerable. Making someone fall in love with you is easy, and flying 3000 miles on 4 days notice because you can't just sit there and do nothing!Breathing in to telephones is not everyone's idea of love, but it is the way I can recognize it, because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways, because that is beautiful, and that's generous! That's what loving someone is! That is raw, and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything really! So, go get her! Now, because her plane leaves in 12 minutes for Holmes Chapel."
"Nothing makes you hurt like hurting who you love"
Love shouldn't hurt, loving somebody with everything you have shouldn't make you feel like you're dying. Louis feels like he's drowning. He should have known where this was going from the start, he should have been prepared. Now he's waking up in an empty bed, some days he doesn't want to even wake up again. There's a hole in his heart; it's in the shape of Harry. Nothing he does can fill it. Drugs, alcohol, pouring out his heart into songs that Harry probably won't ever hear. When Louis is with him, he feels like he's in heaven. Being alone, that's what he feels he deserves, at least Harry can be happier without him.
Maybe if they met at a different time, under different circumstances, he could have saved them. Louis had to do what was best for Harry, but it kills him a little everyday. Louis sees his smile everyday, but he knows it's no longer for him. Someone else makes Harry happier, but Louis wanted it to be him. They could have had forever. Louis would have given Harry everything.
"Forget what I said, it's not what I meant" Harry had tried to say, but Louis knew that wasn't the truth. After everything they've been through, Louis still loves him.