Thoughts Are Fatal
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MatureOngoing<5 mins
Last published Sat, Apr 27, 2019
Warning: This story has mentions of mental health disorders, eating disorder and other things that could be triggering. If any of this could hurt you, please don't read.
Lana, an 22 year old girl, has been suffering with depression, anxiety, and stuff of the sort since she was 16. She one day moves in with a roommate and falls in love with the bubbly girl that her roommate is, Alani. Lana becomes plagued with horrible thoughts that are making her feel worse than she ever has. She feels like she can't make it, can't keep fighting. Alani takes notice but doesn't know of her mental state and how it's been since she was just a teen, this being the case, she doesn't know how to help.
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