Being a teenager in a small town is hard enough. Especially when you don't know what's going on with your boyfriend, or is it best friend... no boyfriend. Right? And it didn't help that I'm not normal. Never was. And the only 2 people who knows who are alive are also the hardest to talk about it. For different reasons... Then there's Paa. Sometimes I wonder if I'll survive. And the only person who can answer that question is the one person I am most scared of- MYSELF.