Somewhere In My Past

Do you know the feeling of being an option, a second best, and the last priority? I fathomed, once in your life you felt being one. It's difficult to be in that place. Really! It can ruin your self-esteem, your relationship with other people, your trust and most particularly your heart. And you know what the worst part is? It can easily shatter one's life into pieces in a blink of an eye.

Have you ever been betrayed? Have you ever been in a situation where in you feel you don't matter? Have you ever been in a place where you believe to be your comfort/safest zone but eventually become your worst sanctuary? I tell you, it's the worst feeling one person could ever feel.

Do you know the feeling of being deceived by your love ones? The feeling of being lied with the person you trusted the most? And you know what's the most painful part is? You still believed them and ignored the realities that your existence is insignificant for them. That you're just a thing they can use for their own sake. But despite of that, you still love them when in fact they don't care about your pain.

Have you ever been lied by the person who promised to love you for all your worth? Who promised to take good care of you whatever happens? Who promised to be by your side even though the world is against you? Who promised to hold your hands when you're scared? Who promised to give you the heaven and stars just to see you happy? Who promised to give you the world and everything he have? Promises. It's all just a promise. Yeah! Now, I do believe that promise is made to be broken.

Rejection...

Betrayal...

Deception...

Lies...

It all leads to my own DESTRUCTION.