be like flowers(Motivational)

always i thinked about my life but .. but how i cant undrestand myself? why i cant be like other girls? why nobody doesn't like me? and another one hundred qs. is it my life? so i prefered tell to myself come on girl never mind and tell to myself be like flowers free..
i couldnt find myself for example i didnt know what is my fav jenere or my fav stayl and it was really importent for me.
i thought this is so better for me if i kill myself! but i scared,i couldent because of my familly and importent person in my life. and again i told myself calm down and just think about you're life not you're died time.
I decided just tried for make my feel so better. i cleaned my mind of bad word like im bad,im ugly,im small,im fat,im short,im tall and something like that. i only laughed,i only tell myself im best,im amazing and im so beuatiful. even now i thinking about my old life. now i have qs: is styll importent for me? is jenere importent for me? No because my mind is full of good think not Unusable think.
i just want tell u be like flowers,they are not free but they mind is clean of unusable think and because of that they are beautiful . so if they mind be black they will die!!.
love yourself💖