If you asked Bex what her biggest fear is, she would say it’s being alone.
But she hasn’t had to worry about that a day in her life. She’s always had her best friend, Nate, to protect her. He is her knight in shining armor, her security blanket. He makes her feel safe.
Of course, she’s in love with him. How could she not be?
Enter Carter Sullivan—the boy who is everything Bex is not. He’s outgoing, confident, fearless…and to Bex’s surprise, completely in love with her. The worst part is, Bex starts to feel something for him, too. But along with her many other fears, she is also afraid of change. She’s loved Nate her whole life, and that’s not something she can let go of easily.
And then, Bex’s worst nightmare becomes a reality when Nate slips into a coma, due to a brain tumor. No one saw it coming. Not Nate, and especially not Bex.
Completely thrown and utterly lost, Bex crawls into the far recesses of her mind, fearing the worst—Nate is going to die. Anxiety shakes her to her core. She can’t go a single day without having a panic attack, and she can’t tell which is worse—losing him, or losing herself.
And who is there to save her? You guessed it—Carter.
But Bex isn’t sure she can trust him. She isn’t sure she can trust anyone. She’s already lost her mind. Is she really ready to offer up her heart? Carter can give her things she’s never had before, things she’s never felt before, but she can’t help but feel she’ll be betraying her best friend if she opens her heart to someone else, and gives herself the room to love and grow that she never had with Nate.
Maybe what she thought was the best part of her was perhaps the worst.
"You shouldn't need to drink to try and drown your feelings Kayla. I've watched the people around me do this all my life and it doesn't fix anything."
"I know it won't fix anything, but for right now it helps me forget"
"You can't keep running away or hiding. In the end it all catches up."
"You sound like you've been through this before."
"I guess you could say that."
"You want me to open up to you, but are you ever going to open up to me? I want to get to know you Tyler, but you are so closed off. You know why I got knocked over by that wave? Because I was watching you, I was watching your face and seeing how free you felt riding that wave. It's the only time I've ever seen you let go. You know that someone hurt me, but I think you have been hurt too. When you're ready to talk, I'll be waiting. Maybe we can help each other."
"Maybe I'm not worth getting to know" he replied.
"And maybe I'm not worth you trying to save me either. Or maybe I am" With that I got up and left him to think about what I said. I put my cards on the table, now it was up to him to make the next move.
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A year ago, Kayla had it all, doting parents and a relationship with her older brother that others envied. By the end of junior year that changed, she's left broken after a series of events in her life, but she is determined to hide her pain from her friends and enjoy the summer. That is until she meets Tyler, who can see right through the hurt. He has his own secrets though and isn't ready to let anyone in. Together they will either fall apart or fall together.