Love is a drug
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MatureComplete Tue, Dec 24, 2019<5 mins
I've always been told i love too hard.I care too much or love too deeply. And to be honest until recently I've never felt that it was a bad thing. My entire life I've been deprived of people that love, care and feel. So I've always overcompensated. I never want anyone to feel deprived of such natural and beautiful emotions. Without them life gets really lonely.
In a generation where it's cool to cut people off without notice, find someone better without working on what you have, move on after a couple of weeks...
My heart isn't meant for this type of shallow emotions. My soul was meant to be reduced to ashes by the things that set it on fire.
But i hope that when i walk out of people's lives, the one thing they can say without a doubt is that i showed them what unconditional, limitless, love and compassion feels like.
Because I've been searching for a lifetime to find that. I hope the ones that i love know they never have to look very far.
-ENYAMOI
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