I have DYSPHORIA >:'(
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Last published Fri, May 24, 2019
Picture of trashcan on Jin's head because I relate to trash and stan BTS
uuUUHHH idk this is just me being my dysphoric, toxic self.
TW for self-harm, suicidal thoughts, dysphoria and shit. Don't read if you're on the verge of death because I mean if writing it didn't help then reading it sure as hell won't. But hey, you never know. Maybe you'll read and be like "oh shit! This sad bastard is suicidal too! I'm not alone! :D"
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