Afraid

"When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might take my place

When I wake up I'm afraid, somebody else might end up being me."- Afraid by The Neighbourhood

"I SWEAR I HATE YOUR FUCKING GUTS RYAN !" I yelled as I through a lamp at his head. Ryan easily dodged the lamp as it crashed into the wall. This wasn't something unusual in our relationship, matter of fact it was a daily routine. Ryan and I have been together since I was seventeen and he was twenty- four. Weird? Yes. But it's not like he wanted it to happen, it just did. We met at a Teenage Depression Rehab therapy I used to attend in high school. I was sent there because i was a complete wreck. Fucked up in the head. Ryan at that time was a counselor who helped out with activities. And our relationship just happened. He know my past and how the monsters in my head eat me alive. He knew my insecurities more then I did.

And I fucking hated it.