OUR SILENCE
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Last published Mon, Jan 27, 2020
Pieces of my personal writing about toxic ness and about many mental health issues. These are just pieces of the moments of my very life changing situations that have occurred in my life. For years, I didn't know that my environment that I once thought was stable was truly unstable and very toxic. 2020, was when I truly and deeply realized the truth. The ugly truth and that is I am living in a curse that should be broken for good. This generation that I am living in now must break this vicious cycle before we destroy the next generation. We must stand up to the truth. We must learn. We must heal. We must teach and do what we preach. We must grow. We must love healthily and unconditionally. We must be compassionate and understanding. We must be truly vulnerable without feeling ashamed or being invalid from others. We must be HEARD. I'm tired of the silence.
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