It has once been said that life is like a roller coaster with all of its ups and downs but it is your choice to scream or enjoy the ride. Most people would say that it is easier to enjoy yourself, but when the whole ride consists of only downs it is nearly impossible to enjoy. Every day is a struggle to block it all out and try to forget but the reality of it is that it is a part of me now and I can't do a damn thing about it.