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Collin is lost, in more ways than one. He doesn't know where he is, who he is, or what the word "reality" even means anymore. All he knows is that he's alone. He's alone. And he can do nothing to stop it.


Trigger warning: the whole book is essentially someone being mentally tortured, so lots of mentally icky stuff. Allusions to self-harm/suicide. Paranoid and/or schizophrenic episodes. 

(I'm not as knowledgeable on schizophrenia as I am on paranoia, so take that with a  large grain of salt)

(Part of the MC chronicles -can be read in any order)
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Cover is a drawing that I didAll Rights Reserved

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