Am I Okay?
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My hands are numb and nobody's asking me if I'm okay and maybe this is a sign that I need to start asking myself that question but maybe I'll go for a walk at 4 am with tears streaming down my face instead of feeding myself
maybe i'll etch burn marks into my skin where he touched me and maybe this feeling in my chest will go away
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I looked at him fear soon enveloping me. My heart starts pounding, my palms become sweaty, I feel my face lose its colour as I become pale. I beg him to stop, I cry out in vain. I slowly feel my soul leave my body as I watch him take my innocence. I then become numb. "Ahhh... That was a good one." He says dropping his sweaty body on top of me.
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