Calorie Mallory

Excerpt:
I pushed my chair out and it scraped over the floor loudly after hearing the dreaded "Mallory, you're up next." The devil sits in the back watching my every move, I can feel his eyes burning into my back as I walk to the front of the class.

My shades hide the eyebags under my puffy red eyes but I know I have to take them off. Hesitantly, I slide them off my face, not wanting anyone to see me in this state.

I clear my throat and straighten up, making sure to put my chin up.

"Everyone, " I start as a greeting, looking around the class to see everyone's eyes on me. "I wrote a poem titled 'Anchor' and it's about foolishness." I finish, ending off with a smile.

I start my poem after a moment of shifting on my feet:
"I love you" rushed out of me like it never even belonged here,
never belonged solely to me.
Like it was uncomfortable and felt unsafe.
"I love you" rushed out of me like alcohol in an upset stomach
As if it were lava and my mouth a volcano that couldn't wait to erupt.
I love you left me lonely like the night leaves day
And suddenly the emptiness started weighing in on me,
Started weighing me down.
It was at that moment, I finally understood why you called yourself my anchor.

I finish with no breaks. If anyone would have told me that I, Mallory Lee, would have let this happen to me, lost control and my guard down 3 months ago, I would have called bullshit.

For the first time, I knew I could not fix it. I could not fix the shit show that had become my life.
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"Everybody, it's calorie Mallory and everybody's getting a t-shirt!"- Oprah Winfrey

Ellen: " Kendall Jenner if you could be anyone for a day, who would you want to be?"
Kendall: "That's easy, calorie Mallory"

"SO much potential wasted on that boy."- Selena Gomez

" Who's Mallory?" - My mom

"No. Comment."- Mallory Lee