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I pushed my chair out and it scraped over the floor loudly after hearing the dreaded "Mallory, you're up next." The devil sits in the back watching my every move, I can feel his eyes burning into my back as I walk to the front of the class.
My shades hide the eyebags under my puffy red eyes but I know I have to take them off. Hesitantly, I slide them off my face, not wanting anyone to see me in this state.
I clear my throat and straighten up, making sure to put my chin up.
"Everyone, " I start as a greeting, looking around the class to see everyone's eyes on me. "I wrote a poem titled 'Anchor' and it's about foolishness." I finish, ending off with a smile.
I start my poem after a moment of shifting on my feet:
"I love you" rushed out of me like it never even belonged here,
never belonged solely to me.
Like it was uncomfortable and felt unsafe.
"I love you" rushed out of me like alcohol in an upset stomach
As if it were lava and my mouth a volcano that couldn't wait to erupt.
I love you left me lonely like the night leaves day
And suddenly the emptiness started weighing in on me,
Started weighing me down.
It was at that moment, I finally understood why you called yourself my anchor.
I finish with no breaks. If anyone would have told me that I, Mallory Lee, would have let this happen to me, lost control and my guard down 3 months ago, I would have called bullshit.
For the first time, I knew I could not fix it. I could not fix the shit show that had become my life.
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"Everybody, it's calorie Mallory and everybody's getting a t-shirt!"- Oprah Winfrey
Ellen: " Kendall Jenner if you could be anyone for a day, who would you want to be?"
Kendall: "That's easy, calorie Mallory"
"SO much potential wasted on that boy."- Selena Gomez
" Who's Mallory?" - My mom
"No. Comment."- Mallory Lee
I looked down at my freshly painted acrylic nails. My heart was racing and my palms were sweating. Although I was having a good time. It was time for me to get out with it. I needed to just spit it out. It's a question that's been lingering in my mind all night. It may ruin the night, but for the sake of my sanity I needed to ask Barron.
Here goes nothing.
"Barron, can I ask you a question?" I said as I twiddled my fingers together nervously.
He nodded his head giving me his full attention.
"What are we doing?" I asked softly. Barron rested his elbow on the table and shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know, I guess we are hanging out." He answered with no emotion. "Hanging out? You taking me to all these places is just us hanging out?" I said a little taken back. I was not prepared for that reply. I should have known. Have I been reading into this all wrong?
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Farrah is single for the first time in her life and is maneuvering through life. She is finding out her likes and dislikes and shaping into her own person. With her group of friends, she is having fun, partying and having sex... a lot of it. For the first time she is truly happy. When she lands a job of a lifetime she cannot keep her eyes off of her hot boss Barron Lopez.
Barron Lopez is a quiet man who is straddling the fence of being a workaholic. He has worked his company from the ground up and is now very successful. Everything is running smoothly until Farrah is hired as one of his employees. Barron struggles with crossing the line with Farrah but he cannot stop thinking about her.
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*Mature Audience Only*
Published ~ August 15th 2022
Complete ~ February 4th 2023